Letdowns & Older...Regroup & Reboot

Wow, I haven't updated in a long time. We've had a lot happening and to tell the truth I haven't felt much like sharing. So to start with "Letdowns and Older". Things seemed to be going well with life, we were expecting another child, just told our family and most of our friends about the pregnancy... then after Thanksgiving... my birthday.

I went to the emergency room just after midnight Dec. 1st. I was bleeding and had to go alone because Paul was home with the kids. I arrived and waited alone trying to stay calm and not get too upset that I may be having a miscarriage. As the tests went on things didn't seem to bad and then finally the ultrasound... I was having a miscarriage. I was devastated and very sad. The only good thing was that the doctor who was attending me was my Stake Pres., I knew him and his family well. It helped to have at least one person there with me that I knew. I of course was on the phone with Paul the instant I found out and at least was able to talk to him through it all. Needless to say that my birthday (Dec. 1st) ROYALLY SUCKED! Actually the following two weeks weren't any better.


Now onto "Regroup & Reboot". It took me a few week to start to feel normal again (mostly emotionally). I kept busy with preparation for Christmas and we had a very low key holiday (thank goodness). During Christmas and winter break I was able to regroup with my family and realized the great blessings that I have in my life. I was able to regroup with my Heavenly Father and tell him how grateful I am for my Savior and how much I need him.


Paul and I were able to go a trip, just the two of us and we were able to reboot our brains from all the stress. I am so grateful for a great husband who loves me and the kids so completely.

Sooo that's what has been up with me and there is more to come. Here is a picture I took on my "Reboot" trip with Paul:

3, 2, 1!!!!

Well Maxwell is one and I am so glad to have him in our family. Our little Max is always in a good mood, ready with a smile and a loves. This week is a special because, just for 8 days, I have a three-year-old, a two-year-old and a one-year-old.

I remember the day Max was born...I woke up early to get ready to head into the hospital for my c-section, I didn't get much sleep from being so excited to meet Max for the first time. It was a Sunday and very quite at the hospital, Paul and I waited for the doctor and the kids came in to say good luck. I was very excited, nervous and terrified all at the same time. But after a very short time in the operating room I heard that cry (that beautiful, wonderful, first impression cry) and was it loud. He never stopped crying all the way through getting cleaned, weighed and bathed. The nurses all commented on how loud he was, but once he got back to me he hardly ever cried again. I remember being in the room with Paul and the kids and thinking of Ammon's birthday coming up and realized I had just given birth to three boys in less than three years, Wow! I wouldn't trade this for anything in the world, even though I do need a nap every once in while. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAXWELL KEITH!!

A New Look 2X

Emma decided to cut her hair and now she is looking quite sassy (straight or curly). And of course, after weeks of waiting and wiggling, you can see Jacob finally lost his top tooth.

Aaarrrgh!!!!

I used to think I got over my fear of spiders when I became a mom, it was either them or us....until today.

Ammon and Isaiah were out playing on the porch while I was watching through the window, suddenly Ammon freaks out and comes flying in the house screaming that there is giant spider. I casually come out onto the porch to check it out, thinking that there was a relatively large spider in need of being put to death. When I rounded the corner to see the largest spider I have ever seen in my life, dead or alive. I have to say I wasn't even going to attempt to kill that thing. This spider had to be as large as my hand and the creepiest thing with eight legs. Needless to say I left this little spider alone and waited for my big strong husband to rescue us when he got home. Paul decided to hose the thing off into the weeds to live out it's life in peace. Here's to hoping I never run into it again.

Preschool Rules!!!

Ammon's first day at preschool was great, first thing he got to do was write his name on a piece of paper and put it on a chart for the question of the day: Are you a Boy or a Girl. He choose correctly and managed to write an "A" with some squiggles behind it. He did a great job on his self portrait as well, making sure every square inch of his body was covered in his favorite color...GREEN! I love you little boy of mine you make us so proud, can't wait to see what you'll do in the future.

WOW! It's Quiet!

The excitement start last night when we began to pick out outfits and had Paul give the all the kids (including mom) blessings. EMMA AND JACOB HAVE STARTED SCHOOL!!!!. (Ammon to follow shortly.) There was a mixture of excitement and nervousness this morning, not very much breakfast was eaten. I am already enjoying a quieter home. Ammon and Isaiah are asking "Where are Emma and Jacob?", even though they were there when they got on the bus. I am sure in about a week I'll be missing all the noise (or maybe not).
Seriously, I love my kids and I will miss them a ton while they are gone, I am so proud of them and who they are becoming. Good luck today, my sweeties.