I went to the emergency room just after midnight Dec. 1st. I was bleeding and had to go alone because Paul was home with the kids. I arrived and waited alone trying to stay calm and not get too upset that I may be having a miscarriage. As the tests went on things didn't seem to bad and then finally the ultrasound... I was having a miscarriage. I was devastated and very sad. The only good thing was that the doctor who was attending me was my Stake Pres., I knew him and his family well. It helped to have at least one person there with me that I knew. I of course was on the phone with Paul the instant I found out and at least was able to talk to him through it all. Needless to say that my birthday (Dec. 1st) ROYALLY SUCKED! Actually the following two weeks weren't any better.
Now onto "Regroup & Reboot". It took me a few week to start to feel normal again (mostly emotionally). I kept busy with preparation for Christmas and we had a very low key holiday (thank goodness). During Christmas and winter break I was able to regroup with my family and realized the great blessings that I have in my life. I was able to regroup with my Heavenly Father and tell him how grateful I am for my Savior and how much I need him.
Paul and I were able to go a trip, just the two of us and we were able to reboot our brains from all the stress. I am so grateful for a great husband who loves me and the kids so completely.
Sooo that's what has been up with me and there is more to come. Here is a picture I took on my "Reboot" trip with Paul:
